I guess i am now very tired... just very tired of everything... holis been shit for me so far... getting less sleep even when compared to exams period... just getting sick of everything... today was complaining to May about my life now... she just made a causal remark that it is my fault... yeah my fault...

"To Stay Back In Melbourne...."

Mmm i am now having doubts of thinking whether i am staying back in Melbourne is such a wise choice... i am lonely, worn out and sick of the life here... my passion for MUISS and work experience here have already turned against me within just a period of less than two weeks... next week results will be out but i am so uncertain whether i will pass all subjects... mmm i am just plain worried that i will not be able to cope with so much stuff at hand... felt that i am taken for granted in MUISS... everyone been at home working or enjoying their hearts out... ask them to do something, they can just come up with some excuses... "WHERE THE FUCK ARE MY NAMECARDS????" How the fark i am going to PR and lay down the foundation for next year if i dont even have NAMECARDS???? ARGH... everybody seems to think that it is so easy to do things... Life as the President sux... and there are not even one exec to help me!!!!! Fark life man... I am so pissed right now... Really after next week ISANA meeting, i am going to wash my hands off MUISS issues liao... Time for me to get my life back... now i am even rushing for report for next week presentation with the VC... fark man... dont even have time to watch my anime... my life now is MUISS, Work and sleep... wtf... pissed off now...

Going to write an email to my execs... need to push them... well if my execs read my blog, U all shld know why I am in a bad mood

Mmmm life been pretty shit for me ever since after exams... haha look at it this way, during exams, even how busy I am, I still get like at least 5 to 6 hours of sleep... but now holis i like getting an average of 2 to 3 hours of sleep only!!! feeling so worn out nowadays... Got a job at Officeworks as Point of Sales Staff... writing report for my Frankston Boss... doing MUISS stuff and preparing to meet the VC of Monash... In the meantime also need to meet people from Monash International, Monash College and other organisation... sheesh... feel that I am breaking down... feeling very tired now... worn out absolutely... feel like .... feel like... giving up sometimes... why i cannot enjoy my holis like any other students??? I dont even have time to watch the anime that i downloaded from the halls... *sigh*

Anyway after the MUISS Vision Meeting, took me some time to come out with the MUISS Vision... well hope that it is well and presentable to everyone involved in MUISS.... here it is:

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The MUISS Vision is established by executive committees of 2002 to 2005 to ensure a continuity of goals and policies by future committees. A three years Vision is established and a review will be conducted after three years in order to take into account of any changes pertaining to International Students and University issues.

Using MUISS as the acronym for our Vision, the following are the goals to be achieved over the next 3 years:

MUISS VISION FOR YEAR 2005 to 2007

1. Monash Culture
. Uphold Monash University’s image as Australia’s most internationalized university through the promotion of Multiculturalism.

· Assist the instillation of values of the Monash Culture (Excellence; Diversity; Innovation and creativity; International focus; Fairness; Integrity; Engagement; and Self-reliance) into International Students to reinforce their sense of belonging to the University.

· Assist in the providence of opportunities for International Students to continuously learn and add value to their university education, thus upholding Monash University motto of "Ancora imparo", which mean, "I am still learning”.

2. Unification
· Seek to improve cooperation, not competition with other campuses’ International Student Organisation.

· Seek to integrate Monash College into the University.

3. International Students’ Interest and Awareness
· Let International Students aware MUISS’ existence as a service provider.

· Reaching out to the majority of the International Students.

· Become the center of diffusion for International Students with regards to issues pertaining to their life in Australia and Monash University.

4. Strong Relationships
· Seek and maintain strong relationships with all Faculties of the University by establishing a presence.

· Maintain and work closely with Monash International in issues pertaining to International Students.

· Continue maintaining close working relationship with Monash Student Association in various student issues.

· Seek support from embassies and other external international organisations to facilitate multiculturalism.

· Establish relationship and plan events with Monash Residential Services to target International Students who stay on-campus.

· Establish friendly working relationships with other universities’ International Student Organisation.

5. Self Improvement, Continuity and Awareness
· Ensure that MUISS is a continuous learning organisation to ensure ready adaption to different external issues pertaining to International Students.

· Ensure that committee members of MUISS have the confidence of having face-to-face communication with all International Students to facilitate better relationships.

· Ensure that there is a sense of continuity in the direction that present and future MUISS committees work towards to, recognizing the fact that there are limitations of what can be achieved during each term.

· Be ever aware that MUISS will not exist without the support of the International students in Clayton Campus, thus there is a constant need to work on the base level of support.

haha before continuing studying i shall make a suggestion for all my blog readers:

How to make people like you more?

Mmm while studying for Social Psychology, an interesting theory popped up under the topic of Affililation where we study why there is a need for human beings to feel a sense of belonging to a certain group of people. Well definitely the issue of love and romance popped up as we look at the theories that determine why people need to love someone else and ultimately start a new family and continue on with another step of their lives.

Interesting one of the theories which I found out was talking about how to make someone like you more. Common sense or what most readers will think that if you want to make someone like you more, u will complement him/her as much as possible or even spend more quality time with him/her... but apparently this theory said that it is not true in reality. In reality, in order to make someone like you more, you must keep insulting them and suddenly at one point of time, start to complement him/her... mmm well after studying through the notes, i seemed to agree with this logic due to the fact that when you insult someone, that someone will think that you are a jerk and form negative perceptions about you. But when suddenly u start to complement that someone, these compliments will make that someone revise their perception about you. In human nature, when there is a conflict among their perceptions, they are more likely to choose the more favourable due to the fact that the risk involved is much lower (ie to have a friend is much better to have an enemy... also another theory states that humans will tend to take a greater risk if they are involve in something favourable and they did not see anything risky)... well thats why that particular someone will form a much better perception about you when compared to constant complimenting about them from the start...

True or not, i dont really believe it at first... but well in an academic side, think of it this way, if there is a lecturer that you think is a bastard or bitch, and suddenly he/she turned around and give you good grades? Wouldn't you perception about this lecturer suddenly turned around?

Well this also applies in relationship i guess... In a Stephen Chow's chinese movie, the phrase "Nan Ren Bu Huai, Nu Ren Bu Ai" came up. The translation is that if a guy is not bad enough, a gal will not like. Apparently if a guy is bad towards other people, the gal is more likely to form a negative impression about the guy... and the guy suddenly treat the gal well enough, the gal tends to like the guy more on the fact that this guy is making the gal to feel a sense of "special treatment".... well thats for the guy's perceptive...

Haha for me? mmm dont believe i fall in that category... I am the typical traditional guy who still maintain the idea that to like someone is to keep complimenting her and make her feel special... haha I where got heart to insult someone that i like???

*The course of true love never did run smooth* well now i know the meaning i guess... the complexity of having a relationship... if there really a need to insult them?

well thats my line of thought after studying psychology...

FLUFFY CHEEKS (THE ENDING)

Well Oaky got the answer right~! haha well the connection is that Fluffy (the laundry softener) has a duckling as its picture and it is like all puff up like that... sure reminds me of cheeks (except of course it is not furry) haha... secondly the puffer fish in Shark Tale also remind me of the actions that were done... mmm haha well lastly after meeting the person, I just felt a strong sense of Deja Vu of where I saw these things... yeah thats the Fluffy Cheeks story...

These few days like never be at home in the night... last week was spending time in Kee Hung place *thanks, Kee for your hospitality and dinner~!* or in IT labs with Samuel and Keith till wee hours in the morning... now is already 4:30am and still in IT labs... keke today came a bit later... was taking a nap after my Psy2042 (Cognitive Psychology) exam. Mmm the exam was sure strange... MCQ exams, they gave us like 3 long hours to do it... dont know wats the point as well... came out in 1 1/2 hours... haha but the strange thing was that out of 120 questions, about 60 to 70 questions have answers as 'B'... mmm this proves two things... either I am right or I am wrong... hope that I do well in this exam man... desperately need the scores to pass this module... if not there gone my $2k for retaking and more stress next year...

Mmm finally exams are approaching to an end... cannot wait for it anymore liao... but well still must study for this stoopid International Business module... oh ya, today just got back my assignment for this module... got a D-... but I am calculating that i need a 75% average in my exams just to get a Distinction... shessh think that I am going to have another Credit for my Business Degree (after the stupid Organisation Behaviour) mmmm shessh there goes my perfect record... jialat man... Well this sem aiming for two Distincitions, one credit and one pass... hope that this will be my minimum grades... been doing badly this sem... really need something to help me to self actualise and perform much better...

*yawn*

back to study lol

Decided to take a short break from online lectures... been on it since like 4pm (now ard 8pm liao) mmm oops forget to mention a short 1/2 hr nap in ITS labs. Mmmm before that attended MSC (Monash Student Council) where the MSA people were discussing issues. Mmm sort of have a culture shock coz i did not understand what they were talking about (about the leasing problem of MSA from Monyx)... haha also mmm the members did not look like committee members at all haha, coz they were like having their legs on the table, their heard lying on the table etc... keke however i think the secretary is quite cute hahah...

mmm yesterday was quite productive until we tried waiting for yvonne's sabo at Kee's place for more than 2 hours and she refused to come over... mmm so instead of bringing her to the sabo, we all brought the sabo to her!!! haha mmm our equipment include fermented yogurt, milk, apple juice and bad eggs! sheesh hahah to think that she thought that she had avoided her birthday sabo haha we been planning this since her birthday... it was highly unlikely that she foresee this coming coz it is like she will be leaving this friday haha... well anyway we tied her up and led her to the nearby field for "Operation Sabo"... She was like screaming "Help" and I was like "Shhhhh...." wait people thought that we were raping her and called the police... mmm so all equipment went down on her and "phew...." she really stunk man... like a skunk... haha... mmm after that everyone took flight except good old Winson decided to help her cut the tape that bounded her hands... yes in the end Winson got infected and became part of the "Smelly Walking Death" (i.e. like Resident Evil like that)... mmm everyone ran to my house and we locked the door... after waiting for quite some time, we thought that Yvonne went to bathe already, we all decided to go back to Ryan's place... while opening the door, we saw Yvonne ran out from nowhere and towards my house... sheesh i ran away... but someone so blur closed the door and did not locked it!!!! Oh my lord, Yvonne stood outside my room and refused to go away unless she hug me... mmm "sheesh" then i also became infected... she kept asking me to get Ryan, Grace or Melissa but they were all either locked themselves up in my laundry room or nowhere to be seen. Lucky Yvonne went back home and bathe... I was like SHIT... and I mean literally SHIT... quickly sprayed some air fresher, but it did not work... in the end after my bath and washing my dirty laundry, I went to wash my floor... sheesh till ard 4am... i am so beat...

haha but all of these are worth it... worth it... haha just to sabo the president of MUISS... wait... now i am the President as well... jialat... think i am going to end up with the same situation next year... mmm now better formulate some forms of escape plans... maybe dig a hole at my backyard? Mwahahah....

Mouth

Dont you readers get irritated when people say: "Your mouth got hole issit?" when you accidently drop some food when eating. You will be like "Wat the fark?" coz due to the fact that does these people knows what is the meaning of the word "mouth"? Let me see, according to my favourite dictionary website (http://www.dictionary.com) the word mouth refers to:

mouth ( P ) Pronunciation Key (mouth)n. pl. mouths (mouthz)
1. The body opening through which an animal takes in food.

2. The cavity lying at the upper end of the alimentary canal, bounded on the outside by the lips and inside by the oropharynx and containing in higher vertebrates the tongue, gums, and teeth.

3. This cavity regarded as the source of sounds and speech.

4. The opening to any cavity or canal in an organ or a bodily part.

5. The part of the lips visible on the human face.

6. A person viewed as a consumer of food: has three mouths to feed at home.

7. A pout, grimace, or similar expression.

8. Utterance; voice: gave mouth to her doubts.

9. A tendency to talk excessively or unwisely.

10. Impudent or vulgar talk: Watch your mouth.

11. A spokesperson: a mouthpiece.

12. A natural opening, as the part of a stream or river that empties into a larger body of water or the entrance to a harbor, canyon, valley, or cave.

13. The opening through which a container is filled or emptied.

14. The opening between the jaws of a vise or other holding or gripping tool.

15. Music.
- An opening in the pipe of an organ.
- The opening in the mouthpiece of a flute across which the player blows.

For goodness sake, how many of the word "opening" can be seen in the definition? mmmm opening also can be known as "kang" *hokkien meaning of hole* or "lobang" *again hokkien meaning of hole* (note: hokkien is a vastly open language where many words can have a very similar meaning, but each used at a different context). Therefore in conclusion these people who says "Your mouth got hole issit?" dont make any sense at all, and I think they should go fly kite.

Next time if anybody makes that similar comment, just ask him/her: "If your mouth dont have hole, how you going to eat your food? Through your nose issit? Show me leh...."

FLUFFY CHEEKS

Mmmm cheeks are cheeks, but how they can be fluffy? mmm it never strike me why until three events that made me ponder about it. Firstly is the product Fluffy in which it is a laundry softener that is sold in supermarket that smell nice. Secondly is the movie "Shark Tale" where I am constantly reminded of that irritating Pufferfish Manager, who keeps puffing up when he panics. The last event is when i met this gal with such blown up cheeks that make me enlighten since then. I saw the glimpse of light that actually bound these three events together which make me understand what is FLUFFY CHEEKS. Ok I will explain much more later... now I am packing up in the ITS labs, after walking Christie back to Mannix, I will be joining Samuel, Keith and Kelvin for mahjong...

Oh ya if you readers are wondering who is the gal, make a calculated guess or keep a look out who got this special description, which i termed as FLUFFY CHEEKS?

mmm today i just make a new resolution for next 2005. The resolution I shall not buy any flowers for any gals anymore. Today just confirmed that Jon and Janelle are together... mmm not that chasing Janelle in any sense... but i noticed that this year i gave flowers to three... oh shit i just remembered it is four gals... when i give them flowers, they were not attached yet. BUT after i gave them flowers, they became attached or very close to another guy... SHIT shock of another day...the other gal whom i thought was not attached, is attached now... mmm life works very strange for me... mmm fark man haha need to get this off my chest before i start the final leap to study my managing info systems... mmm who are the four gals? mmm janelle is one of them (gave her flowers for SSAV Ball) mmm the other three? One of them is Grace (gave her flowers for MMN Ball), whom is now attached to Ryan... the other two? neh no comments... not sure of their status yet... but pretty sure that they are happy with their respective guys....

*sigh*

I suddenly feel like cupid... instead of shooting arrows, i shooting flowers....

no more flowers to give anyone liao...

Oh shit now i thought of another gal... dammed that make 5, whom i also gave flower during a ball... sheesh... lucky the 6th one that i gave flower to is already attached when i gave it to her... oh shit... wait Jon just reminded me... FARK!! she was not attached yet when i gave her flowers!!!!! She was attached over the phone after MMN!!!! NO!!!!!

I feeling like a loser... a very great loser... *sigh*

Gals, next time when i dont give u all flowers, u all should know the reason why...

*heart broken*
signing off..
A Stupid Cupid with no more flowers...