*yawn* waiting for Oaky to call me after she finished her dinner.... wanting to go SEF for a smoke with her... quite stressed now coz I could not find people to take over Graham and Alvina in the house... for this quite pissed with Renee initally coz she just left Melbourne assuming that I will find people to take over the house... She is enjoying now in Singapore while I am suffering here in Melbourne.... mmm dammed...

these few weeks wanted to sit down and type out the report for ISANA but mmm cannot seem to concentrate... dont really feel like doing anything for MUISS at this point of time... more concern about how I am going through the holidays... mmm no money to spend coz all the money i earned go to rent and bills for now... trying very hard to pay off all these money so that next money i can start having some surplus in my bank account for next year... *sigh*

mmmm Officeworks job is fine but it can get quite boring these few days due to a lack of customers... mmm just read Ryan's blog haha mmmm well shall not comment on what he says though but well the only comment is that i am quite unhappy that he had free hours on christmas which means that he is assigned on that day but he no need to work and get paid for it! mmmm well he is lucky i guess but sometimes i felt unjustified coz i so far never take any off and i think i performed relatively well in the tasks i am assigned to... true that i am given more hours but well it means also i got more boring time... mmm but well i want to transfer to BM (Business Machines) coz i think it is more 'happening' there i guess... mmm can walk around and talk to customers... Point of Sale (POS) is definietly boring.... mmm well... mmm hope Andrea (manager in charge of POS) is in tom... need to tell her that I need to take about three weeks off to go back to Singapore... hope that she allows... coz Jan is the peak period for Officeworks... mmm well during that period, Ryan can get all the extra time that he want... keke

mmm i am homesick now... very homesick... quarrel with my mum yesterday... mmm coz she says that i am overspending... well i know that... and i know that the money i am using is my parents savings... thats the reason why i stayed back in Melbourne to work man... mmm i am trying to lessen the impact as much as possible... mmmm that day at SEF with Oaky and Ryan, we are just talking about how people are destined to have something... and how their life turn out the way in compensation for the bad things that happened to them... mmm well i am not from a well off family... but i am trying very hard to change that destiny... hope that this blog will still exist when i have children so that i can show them that their father is trying to re-create a destiny will ensure that they will have a very good life... and this is attributed to their grandparents which sufferred for the sake for their children (ie me!)... mmmm

but well next year is a challenge coz got a lot of things in my hand... need to reorganise my life now... coz next year got a lot of events that i need to take care of in my final year of my uni:

1. Study (need to get my usual Ds and HDs... this year results totally sux)
2. MUISS (need to get the foundation right and make it integral to Monash Uni)
3. Work 1 (hope that i still got my job at Officeworks)
4. Work 2 (perform at MAS and hope to win the contract with Monash Uni)

Mmm next year will try to be selfish... really selfish... think that this year i think of and about other people too much and i suffered in the end... this year begining i talked about being cold hearted... mmm well i will really need to do that... in terms of study, living lifestyle, MUISS (separating work from friendship) and work as well... so people dont blame me... i am not obliged to help anyone except myself... i am not obliged to think and concern about anyone except myself... i am not obliged to help anyone to get out of their shit... well people reading this blog get that in mind.. well i also dont know to what extend i can do that... it is my character to be nice and accomdating... but well seems like people are making full use of me... get pissed off so much but kept it to myself... mmm example, i just send an email to SIF complaining about our Tua Kang King Joseph... fuck him man... hope that i will not need to work with him anymore... wonder why he was appointed as the Honouary Counsellor man... give Singaporeans a bad name...

most likely i am moving out... will find a place to move in... mmm well Renee... if i do that... come back earlier to find urself a place to move in... coz not guarantee i can find a place for u... getting pissed off now trying to look for people and place to move into

mmm been a long time since my last update... this week had been quite tired for me as usual i guess... lets see wat happens:

Monday
met the Vice Chancellor of Monash for the first time in my life... very different from what i percieved about him... talk about a lot of issues... but well quite productive and also he wants to meet us once every two months~! well things are getting on the right track i guess....

Tuesday
Did not work or go ISANA today... went to attend or shld i say take photos with those graduating this year... felt a bit sad coz a lot of my kakis will be gone by the end of the year... felt sad to see them leave...

Wednesday
Went for the first day of ISANA conference in Grand Hyatt... pretty interesting, learned a lot of stuff and made a lot of friends... knew one guy from Queensland, also from Singapore. Voiced out a lot of issues in the NLC roundtable in which i guess will make an impact on international students... managed to convience DIMA and ESOS relevant authorities to have multi lingual proposals or stuff to facilitate the understanding of what is going on and the procedures involved... mmm after that had dinner had Zinc at Federation Square... mmm interesting place to actually hold next year MMN in... well glad that I went for that... met this very interesting gal who actually share a fair bit of interests with me... haha also danced quite crazy and late... even May danced~!

Thursday
Another long day at the conference... went for the morning session and brought some Queensland delegates to Smith Street for shopping. Came back to the conference to attend the afternoon sessions. Learned a lot of things as usual and I think I had found the checkmate move in MUISS influence in Monash. Managed to talk to her again today... mmm i am very impressed by her ability and thread of thought, first time someone whom i discuss my research with can actually contribute something great back to me~! getting really attracted to her... in the sense of being able to hold an interesting conversation...

Friday
Mmm this day is the most interesting day of my life... found couple of people whom share the same interest and displayed particular knowledge in their fields which can facilitate my SIS... mmm interesting... well meet with a couple more people next week in Monash to further push my project... next week will be another tough week coz may need to work and make appointments with different professors to discuss the project... and also international student welfare... another interesting week~! Went to have a look at NLC office in Trade Office... quite a shabby place but well it is still alright... mmm i am excited... really excited... haha now i also do not care about my marks (mmm being withheld due to a strike) dammed.... keke... i can everyday dream... dream of a reality coming true now... Just came back from Victoria place not too long... play one 'wind' of mahjong and talk some nonsense there...

Mmmm thats my life for this week... for the weekend will be working as well... Sat will be having a dinner appointment and mmm Sun hope that I will have some constructive stuff to do.. keke