*yawn* about 6 hours in the ITS lab already... getting tired... stoopid lecturer no brain one, dont know why he put all lecture slides (made using Powerpoint) and convert it into pdf file... so I cannot edit them!!! Been forcing myself to read them on the monitor till my eyes so tired... wah seh... cannot tahan today, so wasted $4 just to print them out... haha but well after printing them out i become very productive... sheesh, now i have a stack of recycle paper... haha can use for future purposes...

mmm well cannot wait to finish tom's paper, then the main crunch of my exams will start... ie preparing for cognitive pyshcology which i need at least a high credit average to secure a pass for the year... mmm *sigh* starting to hate psychology already...

Back to study once more~!

mmm now again at ITS lab at campus center trying to get some study done of Managing Info. Systems (MGF3381) mmm not a bad day... just managed to finished one lecture... still got about 6 more to go to complete my revision. Maybe later will be dropping down to Clayton with Ryan to try to apply for a job at Clayton Officeworks... hope that I get a job... keke need to work man... dont think only writing reports for my boss can get me through the holis...

mmm suddenly feel like writing my plans for MUISS next year... hahaha but think it will take hours to do so... mmm cant wait after exams man... can put all my ideas into words so that I can share them with the previous execs on 13th Nov 2004 where we will be discussing the MUISS vision... mmm hope to get some thoughts and ways to improve my ideas from them...

~Back to Work~

now at MUISS trying to get some work done... been a long day, yesterday spent the whole night studying at Kee's place... mmm managed to get two chapters done only... so technically today need to finish at lest 8 chapters to get back on time... tom planned to do some cognitive psychology so that next week can ease my study schedule... haha stressed as usual..

*keke thanks for your short msn message to encourage me... sorrie, was at my friend's place studying... good luck to your study also too... =) Study hard~!*

mmm well better get back to study already... been wasting too much time... just came back from Yum Cha at New Royal Garden... nice food there... yum yum... so full now hahah

*yawn* today adnormal psychology exam was ok i guess... managed to do about 75% worth of the paper... the remaining 25% haha can say all due to luck lor... mmm today was so tired after the exams... so sleepy... yest found it difficult to sleep and kept tossing in bed till 12am plus... just when i was about to doze off... Melissa called me and after that i could not sleep anymore... mmm took a short nap from 3am to 5:30am (thanks to Christie for waking me up) mmm then mug till exams... very suay *unlucky in hokkien* while waiting for the exam bus, it rained so heavily... sheesh... lucky was not very wet while taking exams....

After exams, was so tired... after taking a bath and calling my mum, i fell onto the bed into a deep slumber... mmm oh gosh... sometimes i would wish my housemates would be considerate... glad that I will be changing room next year... if not i will be moving out... it was so nosiy that I could not sleep... only managed to get some shut eye for 2 hours only... mmm sometimes i think they forgot that there is someone staying at the lower level... endure... endure... few more weeks only... they can take afternoon naps in peace... why cant I? their rooms are all the top... all quiet... my room is at the freak #%!$%$@ stairs and main door... they all walk like elephants and shout like nobody business... let me try doing that by going upstairs and doing what they are doing... see what they say, especially when they are napping... *final warning-i dont need to tell you guys again... been telling you all so many times liao... next time if my slumber is disturbed, i will not be like today... having the blur look talking to u guys... i will be screaming my head off you all...* be warned... now is exams... no excuse saying that i sleep at odd hrs... u all can sleep at odd hrs, why cant i? why i must make the freaking accomdation to ur door slamming and nosiy movements in the house?? almost two sems is a long time... just be considerate for the last three weeks, especially during exams...

now in the library, waiting for 9pm so that i can collect the room to study... hope to cover some of my Managing Info System stuff before spending the whole of tom doing cognitive psychology... after today, i felt more motivated to study coz i actually understand the MCQ paper.... mmm body aching as well... mmm just came out from 1/2hr gym...need to sweat... haha if not sure fall sick one...

I forsee a long week ahead till exams finished...

Mmm not bad, now still at library annexe mugging... haha finally felt that first time in this semester that i understand Abnormal Psychology... mmm managed to revise most of the chapters at this point of time... mmm still got ard two and a quick look at the lecture summaries then i am done with it... mmm still got that splitting headache... dont know why even i felt very awake, the headache still persist... mmm dammed... really reducing my capacity to study substainally... mmm hope that tom will be better... if not jialat leh... then i will be abnormal as well liao lor...

think i am screwed... feeling sick now and the exams are tom... sheesh... supposed to start studying in the library now... first thing i can in, log into the computer and ZZZzzzz for one hr!!! This is definitely not a good sign... also mind is feeling very tired already... cant concentrate...

Sheesh.. the last blog template did not work well (take too long to load)... so temporary use this for now... *sigh* spent so much time on it liao... well too bad... back to studies~!

Mmm just spent one hr on my blog... should be studying now haha.. just that felt very bored and need some form of relaxation... well guess i relax enough liao... back to study...

haha think this blogskin suit my "Uncle Beng" image... dont you guys think so?

*yawn* another day and another time in university mugging... yest night surprising was quite productive in Samuel's and Keith's place... managed to cover three chapters in abnormal psych thoroughly... mmmm well thirteen more chapters to go with two days to spare... now not so afraid of abnormal psych but more worried about passing my cognitive psych... also worried about my International Business as well... need to maintain my Distinction average... mmm last sem i already got a credit for me Org. Behaviour and it was a morale wrecker... mmm well now my business degree is doing fine except for the arts... been pulled down by psych a lot man... really regret taking psych now... so much stoopid stats and why a future inspired management consultant like me, need to study biology??? it suxz man... great time...

Still sore over the stoopid abnormal pyshcology assignment due date change... now i am scheming how to complain about this issue... disappointed to found out that Monash does not have any form of punishment on staff which had done any forms of error... most of them just get away from a warning... mmm sheesh... this is like encouraging people to make mistakes coz they knew that they will not be in any form of trouble man... mmm so there gone the quality image of Monash... bullshit...

haha a few threads of complains here... keke still trying to source out as much issues as possible for my Project SIS... i just discovered during my revision in Manganing Information System, SIS stands for Strategic Information System... mmm quite useful fact for the name of my project... keke thought of SIS when talking to my sister... mmm haha i actually dedicated this project to her... oh by the way people who thinking what SIS is, SIS in my project stands for Staff Involvement System and the second generation stands for Student Involvement System... sounds cool right? Mmmm need to justify this project... what i forsee is that if Monash is to implement this project, it would become more self sufficient instead of relying on those stoopid external consultants... also it will make Monash one of the top three universities... I was surprised that Monash is now ranked 6th out of the group of Eight... always thought that Monash is ranked higher... *sigh* think i should have went University of NSW in the begining...

Back to study liao lor... mmm cant wait to go back Singapore at the end of Dec to drink so kopi and my fav ban mien at the 24 hours coffee shop opp my place... sheesh... also miss the nearby Macs but close down liao... mmm now it is just another coffeeshop...

"You will always be a loser if you give up now...."
"You will never know the result unless you reach the finish line..."
Naruto to Idate
Naruto Episode 104

Been a long time since i updated my blog... exams time coming so i was thinking of whether to type something for now... now in the computer lab at campus center... since it is opened up till 12am, i think well i can afford to use some time to update my blog once in a while...

Something that was significant for the last few weeks i guess the new MUISS committee has been settled down more or less... at least we had our first face to face meeting just yesterday... mmm i think... or i am sure that we can work more closely together and bring MUISS to greater heights... mmm also think there are a lot of potential in this current team as well except maybe they must take note of their time management... dammed... cannot stand people who are consistently not punctual i guess... as the Last Bash i also over liao... so this actually marked the start for the committee 2004/2005.... wish us luck till then...

The next significant stuff for me was that finally i finished watching the anime series Full Metal Alchemist (51 episodes) about the brothers Eric and Alphonese who are alchemists... mmm never expect the story to take an interesting turn... well guys i strongly recommend it for you guys and gals... also i learned something from it...

"In the equivalent trade of Alchemy, one can only get something in return for something with an equal value..."

Mmm well guess that this applies to people who are more down to earth i guess because at the end of the anime (warning spoiler for the anime), it was said that this theory does not exist and it only serve to bluff all the alchemist in this anime series. I believe that to a certain extent this is true... whether you can remember your parents telling you that you must work hard in order to get sweets or presents... if not you will get nothing... But when people grow up, sometimes they tend to go through underhand methods just to get their goals and the stuff they want... mmm that why to some extent the equivalent trade of Alchemy does not apply to someone... well thats where the term "nobody's perfect" comes in... nobody, including me will follow such a rule... maybe it is human nature???

mmm currently i am watching the following anime:
1. Inuyasha (heard that it is coming to an end, now i only at 148 epsiode only.... *sigh*)

2. Gundam Seed Destiny (it rocks~!!!! now at 2nd epsiode)

3. Shaman King (at 20 epsiode, very difficult to find online, tempted to buy the DVD set)

4. Transformer Superlink (at 16th epsiode.... think that i am always a sucker in Transformers)

5. Twelve Kingdoms (at 16th epsiode... also difficult to find... tempted to buy also liao)

6. Naruto! (at 104 epsiode... best anime i watched so far)

7. Macross Zero (at 4 epsiode... cant wait for the next and final one to come out)

8. Ghost in the Shell Stand Alone Complex (Just finished... not bad)

I am definitely looking forward for Advent Children (Final Fanatsy 7) movie to come out on DVD... it looked so cool... especially Cloud... mmm i sound like some young gal hahaha....

well time to go back to my studies liao... mmm maybe after one hour of online lect, I may come back to blog... keke to relive stress lah... haha blogging always a good way to relive stress one... keke

Think Uncle Beng is back once more~

Got a lot of thoughts now but dont know how to expressed it... think some people are assholes... mmm no names ard here... but i just feel that way even thought it may be my perceptions... mmm well if you are hungry for power, doesnt means that other people are hungry for power... if you think that a exec position is the most important thing that you can get in life, it means that you never see the world yet... No further comments on that thought just that it is a sad that that MUISS supposed to exist for the international students... now what i see is that people is more concern about the execs positions rather than the students... positions are there to facilitate the helping of the students... so wat the fark?

*These few days i really question my will power and my belief once more,
dont know why always i do that once i had doubts about persuing a relationship,
on one hand, i always longed for a relationship coz i desire for one to be there for me,
on the other hand, i also questioned how far would i go to persue a relationship,
even giving up my principles, dreams and hopes?"

Now in the library doing online lectures, been doing this for the past few days already... mmm now at least i had covered half of my abnormal psychology stuff... need to get down onto assignments tom already coz i still got three of them and tons of readings to do... mmm wat happened in the past few days? Mmm well remembered that me, Christie and Winson went to watch Shark Tale on Wednesday I think and been going to lib on Thurs and Fri... On Fri, went to attend the Monash International Focus group which aimed to improve the book "Passport to Monash"... Fri evening went to shoot some hoops (i.e. Basketball) with Josh and went coffee with him at Glen (this resturant called Purple Rock)... actually glad to catch up with him and talk about some personal issues which i am relived to get the load off my chest...

After this, went to Song Yee and Yvonne's Birthday Party... haha it got delayed for a while and I am getting really hungry... Supposed to sit down and watch "Around the World in 80 days" but my mood changed once more haha... in the end, was sitting outside with Allan and Oaky smoking for a while... After Oaky left us, me and Allan continued to chat and i am glad that after talking to him, i felt better and more relieved... haha but in the process we smoked about almost 6 sticks each haha... my throat almost got burned man haha... nothing much happened after that, we cut the cake later... After that Christie dropped by my place to see my collection of photos and i am showing her my Hainan Trip photos where i knew my first ex-gf and i picked up smoking... still cannot imagine that i picked up smoking there... perceptions sure change... Ard 1am plus, went back to Yvonne's place to play "Mafia".. haha it was fun but i went back to sleep at ard 4am... these few days had been tedious for me coz i really cannot sleep at night and i think it was putting a toll on my body...

"i think i am strong enough,
i think i am strong enough,
i think i am strong enough,
i think i am strong enough,
i think i am strong enough,
i think i am strong enough..."

"Dont know how to face her, dont know wat to feel right now...
i am really really trying to be immune towards most stuff...
always just when i am almost ready to forget about her,
things must appear out of the blue and make me remember...
the feeling is there and time is needed to forget it but no time...
no time now to think about it so much coz of more pressing issues..."

"Need to try to be more serious,
people been treating me like a joke,
is there a need to be serious?
think even she thinks that i am a joke...
am i really a joke?"

"Love struck me down in the course of my life,
trying to get up seems to be tough and uneasy,
after getting up from the floor,
am i going to be happy coz i am over it?
or am i going to be sad coz it showed that i had failed..."

"Being the transcend being is tough enough for me...
destined to have a life of loneliness and isolation,
how i longed for someone there to understand me,
showing me the glimpse of light in the lonely night...
showing me the warmth in the cold night...
showing me that somebody will be there,
when i am lonely and stressed about life..."

"Does having wheels better than legs?
Does having a wig better than a report?
Does having a status better than not?"

"I am just a nobody, trying to be somebody"
From Oscar, A Shark Tale

"I have nothing, trying to be something..."

*sigh*
"What a life..."

haha i did renee's personality test and mmm I am Mother Teresa~ mmm think i got split personality... coz how can Uncle Beng be Mother Teresa??? unless she is an Ah Lian before she became a nun?

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