Weeeeeeee almost one year since my last entry!! Think my charms charms must be waiting until head drop out liao. As usual, only do entry when i am in labs mugging for a farking @!*&%*$@!#!@ statistics exam.... but it will be my very very last exam for the whole life...!!! no more freaking coursework and no more freaking dickheads marking your assignments!!! yeah!!!!

Still on route for a first class honours depending on my thesis, which is on... like u peeps guess, international students and monash!!! so not too bad... except a few brush off with the university ethics committee.... farking .*)_*)(@&$**()&!@#$*(&!@.... will officially complain about them to the university once i finished my thesis...

Well still going strong with Elly if anybody is bother with Uncle Beng's love life. Well maybe making a life-decision soon i guess... hahah dont worry if i make any life decision, all my peeps, biatches, friends, uncles, aunties, kakis etc etc will know~!

Oh by the way did you see my face on MSN messenger??? hahaha

Will be back at the end of January! Must catch up man... i sure miss coffee session at Mr Bean and supper at Geylang!

Better get to study... if not i cannot smell my H1 anymore!

yep yep been dormant for a few months for now in my blog coz been too lazy to blog. Tommorrow is my last paper already and cant wait for it to finish. But after that need to continue to use my brain sheesh... no break. Need to work on the following things:

1. Think about the stuff that I am going to research on in Sydney (mm link between IT Indian students and why they want to come Australia in short)
2. Planning out the whole orientation program for Monash College next year (yep i am getting paid for it by Monash International)
3. Starting on my next year honours thesis on Higher Education management
4. of course doing no-brainer job at Officeworks- stock take etc etc

Life is pretty boring and i wanted to talk about this issue a long time already. it is with regards to the Australian Vietnamese who is going to be hanged for smuggling drugs in Singapore. Well typical Australian to come up with all sorts of excuses and reasons to protect this young man's life. I really sympathise with him and his family, however he took the chance and he must be prepared to pay for it. I mean some argue that a death sentence is far to dear for any offences BUt please consider the fact that at least respect each country's legislation no matter how barbaric that one can perceived. well typical australian again, trying to use good relations etc etc to influence other countries and threaten to revoke trading ties... mmm maybe this is not for the majority of Australians but.. well the next thing they will ask if for extraterritorial rights which were granted in the colonial period. I say HANG him... not because i support the death penalty or what. But it is well publicized that Singapore will hang any drug smugglers and i guess the government will not give face to anybody including the US (remembering back in 1994 where we caned the little bad boy Michael Fay who vandalised our infrastructure) I personally ahd send an email to the minister urging him not to bend into Australian influence. yup you can get petitions, you can pray and hope for him, but well let him be an example to others not to smuggle drugs through Singapore. He can swim through Bintan or Batam for all i care... maybe also can bribe his way though... but definitely not Singapore. i hate the commenter in the Herald Sun who said that "Australia plays a large role in educating Singaporean and it is time for her to show some compassion..." grow up fucker asshole... we pay huge money here and we are not here for free... this showed the narrow mindset of Australians who thinks that the world circled around them etc etc.. come on, i think may international students here in Australia can say that the standards of education are not as high as the standards that are normally publicised in public.. we are being treated like shit here even though we are paying big bucks... the government is changing the ESOS act to allow universities to charge us compulsory fees... so to fund those local student protests????!!!! BULLSHIT... trust me it is not the university's fault (i hope) but maybe the whole Australia fault and we cannot just blame specific individuals or groups... mmm just look at the government... treating us like cash cows and fucking assholes cannot even give us transport concessions!!!!!!

Oops getting much emotional here... i retract all sentences that i had type and i apologise to the people who takes pride in multiculturalism but yet still show signs of discrimination towards international people who pay big bucks to fund their daily activities.

mmm positive post finally after so many months of complains...

1. Yeah finally finished my MUISS presidency soon... managed to reach most of goals except internal aspects once... last meeting with the VC and the DVC selection interview and I am DONE! Time to relax... shessh wat relax... two weeks later is my test and exams liao~~~

2. Finally decided to do honours next year! so people who are sick of my face will see me for another year!

3. Going Sydney for one week! haha for work (doing surveys there) haha being paid and all expenses paid for~!

mmmm okok post more later...

SHIT... just know this from my friends... my monash college ads are in the MRT as well!!! die... no face to go back Singapore liao...

Been two months this time since i updated my blog... being irritated by a lot of people who think this who think that and think that they knew a lot of stuff... bullshit...

1. hated people who think that they are farking hardworking and clean only when they are free. Can leave dishes in the sink but when people leave dishes in the sink, he thinks that he cannot run a farking organisation.

2. hated people who think that someone is not good enough to lead an organisation because he is worried that no one can do their farking table duty and sell tickets for MMN. (come on everyone knows that from previous year, how effective is table duty?) I am a realist and not an idealist

3. hated people who question my authority in front of my committee members without first come to talk to me.

4. hated people who question me who had no farking logic or even know what he/she is talking about in the first place. Get your facts right before approaching someone and dont waste the other people time.

I kept quiet coz i dont like to shoot people (especially in front of others) but dont treat me as i am ok with this and that. My advice for everyone who reads this blog of mine is that think of urself as a person and your position first before going on shooting people or telling people other things. Yeah have an open mind and think of what you say first in the first place. If you think yourself are so capable or so CLEAN, well be in my shoes first and physically/literally be in MY SHOES, frankly speaking, if you dont speak to me face to face and you expressed your disconcern about me to other people, i can say now... FARK U and frankly speaking i am no need of such friends or workmates who stab people at the back...

I am sick of needing to explain myself always why MUISS is this and why MUISS is not that... fark everything i say... if you are so capable that you can keep MUISS surviving next year with VSU around and still maintain a good committee cum get good feedback from everyone around you. Go ahead. Dont compare my term with Yvonne, Ryan and even Cheng Hoe... what is VSU to them man??? During their period, MI is not integrating with Monash Uni or private sponsorship going down or International student numbers are going down. I have 24 hours of my life and i spend more than 1/4 of it on MUISS, 1/4 on studies, 1/4 on sleeping and 1/4 on working. Fark man where is my private life? My execs always complain that i did not give them direction etc etc, COME ON, we are all adults here... where is the farking initiative? NLC is bad enough liao, cant someone take the initative to like organise meeting, table duty, clean up the lounge... fark man, small things cannot handle and you guys want to handle the university to ensure MUISS survive or get money next year??? Outside people lagi worse... first thing always is compare my term with previous terms, open your farking eyes and see... what is so different and similar between my term and previous terms???? if i can have their working conditions, I would be most happy also...

Fark it... I only have around two months to the end of my term liao... if you all guys think that it is easy, go and run for the position, of course you will still have an easier life than me, coz everything I had set the foundation already. However, let me remind everyone that "whatever i can build, i can destroy as well"

sheesh been almost a month since i last updated my blog... mmm now at T125 24 hours lab studying as usual... looks like I am not so well-prepared for these exams... fark Monash man... where is our one week study break before exams???? *sigh* Somemore Officeworks kept calling me to work more and more... even the new manager Ryan called me...

Ryan: Can you work today (thurs) 4pm to 9pm?
Danny: No I got class (I am bluffing)
Ryan: Then can you work tom (fri) 7am to 4pm?
Danny: No I got class (this is real)
Ryan: Then how about fri 4pm to 9pm?
Danny: Cant too, i need to study....
Ryan: Why everyone is making my life difficult... no one wants to work!!!!

mmm well i already being forced by Troy to work during my exams liao... really cannot afford any more time man... if not i will be screwed....

MUISS at this stage is going on well i hope... MCF and MMN are going fine (just managed to secure a $10,000 sponsor from the VC) and now waiting for Fac of Bus/Eco (i am hoping for around $3000 to $5000). Ski trip left 4 places, NLCAC participants are confirmed... only thing need to do is to send the invitation letters to the ambassadors for MCF to come... Need to tie down various issues later as well... orientation BBQ, reports for the VC, liasing with the Centre of Indigenious Studies, settle the Halal on-campus food issue etc etc... mmm cant wait for my term to end liao now... and of course in preparation for the master plan for MUISS in the light of VSU and ASOL MWAHAHAHAH...

Being with Elly can be a strong emotional support and motivating factor as well... mmm this sem i am hoping that i can really do well despite my committments to Officeworks, MUISS, Elly and MAS (my consulting job)... mmm how the fark i manage? Well.... i dont know... haha somemore now i just started playing neo-pets~! sheesh really more wastage of my time lol...

Been a long time since i wrote a decent blog... now still in Caulfield T-Block 24 hours labs trying to do my Issues in Competitive Advantage assignment... which is due in two weeks time... but my stoopid friend coming in that week... so need to bring him around haha so need to do earlier...

These few days been having some thoughts about last year... think people changed a lot... I think i may change too... for example i think a gal that I once fell in love with had changed such a great deal that I really forgot why i felt so attached to her in the first place... maybe i changed? I dont know... and i really dont think i changed that much... i always try to be there for her... even though the period of heart ache that i been through, dont really think that she appreciate it in anyway... mmm well thats history i guess...

Anyway this semester been a good one for me so far... despite some serious screw ups but so far my assignments are still quite consistently good i guess... now it is just preparing for exams... dammed i hate exams especially when you are feeling that you dont have sufficient time for revision... last sem now i already started my revision... but now i am still struggling with my assignments hahaha....

Mmmm the whole Monash Uni is undergoing so much change that it has became so dynamic and uncertain... mmmm from today Review Panel that i attended, i got this dammed bad impression that the top management is still living in their fantasy land saying that Monash is still doing fine etc etc... dammed... wake up please and smell the odour of students are giving out in disgust with regards to the university... students reps are giving bad feedback... and imagine what kind of feedback that the general students will give... esp those who are isolated due to Monash in the first place... dammed...

just a recurring thought and disgusted views from a disappointed international student...

Mmm i am on cloud nine.... finally some emotional stability in my life... keke... well like everyone who knows me very well will say... "Yippee, Danny this time never give any flowers~!"

Everyone meet Uncle Beng's gf (Elly) hahah and dont ever call her Auntie Lian!

MUISS

Well just finished reading Ryan's blog about the current MUISS execs, mmm not my normal practice to comment about other people's blog or even speak my heart out... like what Ryan said... this is my blog and i can say whatever i want i guess...

Before i continue, i would like to say today's gen com meeting was hedious... shocking and disappointing... not coz i am half an hour late for work due to the meeting but other things as well which i will continue...

Well normally I would defend myself against any accusations that people say about me coz i believe that everything i do so far is the correct way or shld i say the best way... but well Ryan, I did agree with you in terms of what you say about MUISS and myself... As a lone ranger, i think I am successful in every aspects, but as a team member, I had failed miserably... this I say it is true... what i going to say next i emphasise is not to defend myself or an excuse for anything...

Last year as gen com, i really did spend all my life in MUISS lounge, no matter wat happens i am always there... but I declared that 50% of me is willing to spend time there but 50% of me just want to stay there coz i do not want to return to Seascape. This year I also hope to spend as much time in MUISS and bond with everybody in the committee but I really did not have mcuh time available... Also my true feelings even from the interviews of gen coms and team building camp, I felt displaced to a certain extent... dont know why... some people can say that Elly is the reason and some other say that I have changed... I just dont know... as the President, things had been going hard on me i guess.. I really miss the team building camp I had in Sorrento when i am a gen com... I miss going crazy with Chang Wei, i miss the days i dont need to worry about things and just enjoy myself... this I told myself that I will commit at least 20 hours of my time for MUISS no matter what happend... well 20 hours is just like the maximum number of hours that my visa will allow me to work... less meeting times (both internally and externally), less office duties, PRing and less the time i spend on reports, mm i will be left like 3 to 4 hrs left... well most of the time I am in MUISS...

I want to spend more time with my execs, but everyone always say that they are busy and etc.. not saying that i blame them, i also have my other committment etc... initially i did try to make the extra mile by trying to meeting up with them, especially after the meeting in my house and in MUISS Lounge... but well when often u try to make the extra mile and see no progress, you also xianz right? Being the President, i agree that i am the figurehead and the leader... everything i do, i will be setting an example... But well look at it this way, even you set an example, what is the use if no one wants to follow? Everybody can say they are busy... when i say i am busy, they say that I am not committed to MUISS... Everybody say they got assignment, come on... i also got assignment... everybody else say they are busy... how about me? maybe i blame myself for involving myself with so much things... but I am not like anyone else who can get money but reaching out my hands... I am not anyone to sit back to see things happen... but well...

I agree that I am supposed to lead my execs and my gen coms... to me leading is to be there for them, providing them with direction and of course make decisions with them... share the joy and pain together... share everything together... start off as a team, work as a team and end as a team... well good vision and ideology.. i totally agree with that... True i must share what i been doing to everyone... make a decision based on the whole committee decision... representing MUISS, representing International Students and ultimately representing Monash Uni as a whole... but who can understand what I been doing? people had been saying that if i spend more time explaining to everyone, they would understand, or even comprehend to a certain extent... when they understand, then we make a decision and later feedback to them... Well i did try to explain what i been doing... but in the end it only ended with more misunderstandings and more conflict... Another thing is MUISS always take pride as an organisation who dont involve itself in politics... whether internal or external... gosh how i wish that i can continue with that...

Ryan, no offence at this stage... I really hold high regards as you as a President of MUISS and of course as a great friend... To me, i always thought that you are the better president beside Cheng Hoe and Yvonne coz you have the support of your peers and a lot of other things... I knew that you see more of the university than me... you sit in more university meetings than me... i also agree with your philosphy that it is better to walk out with 20 friends better than none... Like I say this year is very crucial... I dont want to use VSU or ASOL as an excuse... but since you are involved in the university level, you will know that the whole university at this stage is in a stage of uncertainity... even the whole of MI is undergoing change... next few weeks, even MI may not exist to assist MUISS... with so much uncertainity there are much politics going on here and everywhere... No saying that within these few months i knew about everything in university... but things are getting more complex everyday... as complexity increases, deep down in my heart, i really hope that i have more than 24 hrs a day to solve these issues... I know that you will choose friends over what happen in MUISS or what you term as achievement... well frankly speaking at this stage, if i have a choice i would choose friends over everything... to me friends are always the most important thing... but following on what Byran say... "even if you dont perform, MUISS will still survive..." now looking at this stage... to what extent will that be true? It is true that even if VSU is to be implemented, MUISS or the other Monash ISOs will still survive no matter what... but how it will be? How the future MUISS will be? will it still be the MUISS where all my precious memories of friends and laugther we have there? how would the FOMs and well as previous committee members' memories of the place like you once called "second home" be like? I may sound a bit overboard in these two sentences and some people may term me as a over emotional and over reacting person... at this stage, i am more concerned about the survival of MUISS as a whole... also the image of Monash University as a whole... call me selfish, call me an idiot, call me an asshole who wanted fame and fortune by doing all these things only for himself... so be it... but ultimately, my goal is that i want my degree to look better and international students will not get the same shit that I had to go through when I was here... Ryan, our priorities are different... but this is not an excuse that i will let the team go separate ways or become enemies at each other throat... I will endevaour to try as hard as possible...

I frankly speaking dont know how much I had grown... from my first year till now, I am always bent on changing Monash... my hatred for Singapore Universities drove me insane i guess... maybe more toned down at this stage especially when i felt more attached to Monash University as a whole... but this attachment had pushed my limits to contribute as much to the university and hoping that it will improve... often people misunderstand me that my contributions are being justified by going to have a better looking resume... like i always say... screwed the resume... my passion is driving me... but coz of this irritating thing call passion, i always wanted people to have the same level of passion as me... but that is not possible... if i were to say it in a bad way, i am willing to die (chinese) for Monash... how many people are willing to say that?

Since i am small, i always believe that my life is boring and my thoughts are worthless to others... i never share my experience with anyone... always kept my thoughts within me... always thought that my ideas are stupid and not workable, think that no one will listen to me when i speak... well even now i am the same... Elly used to tell me that I am a confident person coz i am the President of MUISS... well I am not... I am human... I am not even confident that my execs have trust in my capabilities... I dont even have the confidence that the direction that I am pushing MUISS into is the right direction... I dont even have the confidence that I am even able to pass this semester if i persist in MUISS... people always say I am a HD boy or I am a D boy with no problems in studies... I am not... I am really not... mmm seems like this is getting more personal every minute i am writing this blog... well underlying factor, once i have a setback, i will go into free fall... i am going free falling now... coz of my belief that team works sux... haha no offence to my execs team... that is what i always believed over 25 years of my life... i am even persuing to write a thesis against teamwork... thats why i took a double degree in psych, management and sociology to futher this thesis....

well everybody who read this blog, please bear in mind that friend is friend, work is work... and i regard everyone as a friend...