mmm well supposed to be doing this assignment, but really need to get some things out of my mind first. Maybe will talk about relationships later...

well my 24th birthday just passed a few days ago, but well to be direct and blunt, I guess it was the worst birthday of my life. Frankly speaking for all my life, I never expect anyone to celebrate my birthday with me, except my family. My first year in Melbourne, my birthday was celebrated with my ex-gf as well as a few of my Normanby House friends... Last yr was worse coz my ex-gf sort of made things worse for me.... long story... but i am glad that i have friends like Ivan, Andrew, Jon and the gals like Meiyan etc to celebrate with me.... this year I am really expecting something different from the people that I know coz always I feel that this year i had established quite good relationships with everyone.... especially always pple asked me to contribute to b-daes etc, i will always try to do that unless i have something up during that period of time... so how do my b-dae started?

It started by a "sabo" by the guys... mmm i dont mind the cold water... but i hate the stoopid expired milk!!! well like i told Renee, i felt cheated because she told me that number 7 had a birthday cake for me and i am really glad that they remember my birthday... but well in the end, nothing materialised i guess... the day at MUISS was fine, everybody wishing me happy birthday, well it is standard practice i guess... mmmm but the night time really sux great time... well not that i am depressed that nobody asked me out or anything like that, but i was happily enjoying my night... furthermore, my housemate went out with my neighbour, and still can ask me what i want to eat for dinner etc etc... mmmm at that moment i am lost.... also number 8 came over and complained the mess that was at their doorsteps due to the "sabo".... imagine spending like almost 40 mins on your birthday in the cold night cleaning up the mess..... well frankly speaking i was tearing a bit when i was doing that... gosh i am really depressed... there are other things that happen during that period of time which i do not feel like commenting... but well i ended up taking a long walk at the nearby field... mmm i was like walking about 5 rounds of the field, reflecting about stuff....

i was thinking about my philosphy of "doing something and never expecting anything in return"... i dont know whether that is a valid philo or wat... but i was just thinking about it though....

ok josh just popped by my place for supper... mmm going to get some food to fuel my mood... brb